You wish. You wish that you were actually missing out on something, so it's there waiting for you. You can imagine that somewhere is an awesome video game or movie waiting for you. Maybe playing that video game someday will make you feel so smart and so capable and be as satisfying as... as... It's not. The best thing about the board game is that it has a beginning and an end. Video games constantly level up. They only "end" after a huge commitment, and at the end, what have you got? Bitcoin to feed your family? Not even? Self-respect or self-loathing? Maybe self-respect as in -- I'm so smart. I can win this video game! Maybe self-loathing as in - I did that? Well, it was kind of fun, but . . . BUT -- finish putting out a song and posting it, it pays you back over and over again. And then someone like me tells you I listen to your two albums all the time - sometimes background, but every time I tune in, I hear some other bit I didn't hear before. Then it pays you back over and over again. Self-respect or self-loathing? Self-respect, because you communicated some little bit of your soul. Video game? What little bit of your soul have you shared levelling up in a video game or playing with people you'll never meet? Or finish a podcast with a dozen voices. Maybe it will be on "Why do you write?" Maybe you got a dozen random people to think about that question. Put it all together and it'll pay you back 100 times, and pay them back to. OR MAYBE -- instead of playing a video game, you read someone's post on hubski, encourage someone on hubski, see something nice in their contribution. Give them a little confidence. . . Self-esteem or self-loathing?I'm missing out big time, aren't I?