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blackfox026  ·  3834 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: What you wish you had known @ 18.

Well the weed was making me socially awkward even though it was helping me meet people. Back around that age I just smoked way too much--almost every day, and often several times each day. It was just holding me back. I even realized it at the time, but kept smoking anyway.

My first few acid trips were some of the most important experiences of my life, but I started associating the positive aspects with the drug itself and ended up falling into the 'seeker' mentality. Ended up dosing around 50-60 times from freshman to sophomore year of college, and a lot of those were just a waste. Often times it would become an excuse not to socialize with people--I was tripping, so I'd isolate myself and feel justified in doing so. This led to a lot of weekends I spent alone that I should've spent hanging out with friends and meeting people (although I did meet people who were down to trip with me, and those were some really good times).

I just wish I had the wisdom back then to know there's really a time and a place for these things. The time and place for weed is at the end of the night, when everything interesting has already been done. For acid, you have to take some time to wrap your mind around new concepts between trips so your mind has something new to sort through during the experience. Otherwise you're just getting intoxicated and not really learning anything.