It's hard to say, since I lurked for so long, but this is the best documentation of my journey to Hubski: I think I got freaked out by all of the attention I garnered from that post and started losing it again, and needed a long-ish break from the community. Maybe fear of being in the spotlight is really why I lurk all the time, and potentially why I went nuts in the first place. I had my (real) name and (real) professional reputation slashdotted once when I was about 14 years old and I don't think I ever fully recovered from that (for positive reasons, it was praise). I guess I kind of understand why famous people lose it, I guess. PS: kleinbl00 I know it's like 6 months past-due, but I apologize. I doubt you even remember why, but I remember a conversation about you wanting me to apologize for being a dick or something is what tipped me over the edge for some reason (for some reason I felt cornered). Crazy people be crazy, yo, the past is the past, let's move on. :)