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ButterflyEffect  ·  4349 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: What are you doing with your life, why, and how do you feel about it?

The same as any other engineer really, apply to a lot of places and hopefully one hires you as a student. I can do anything from Mechanical based work to Environmental work. The disheartening thing is that I've applied to >50 and have only had one interview, despite a decent GPA, good extracurricular and work experience.

I really don't know. It's essentially an essay on suicide and absurdism. Suicide is, admittedly, something I have thought about a lot in the past. The absurdism part though, that's what is getting to me. It's really making me question everything, and the general absurd nature of life. You live maybe 80 years, and within a fifty of dying you're probably long forgotten. So the question arises is it really worth working 40 hours a week for ~40 years? What is the real value of money past the point of survival and some comfort? Would I be happier packing up and taking a while to see the world, maybe change my career? Is the world really as cold of a place as it makes it out to be? Am I with a girl that I can spend the rest of my life with, and can we make it through the long distance (another entirely absurd thing)...just...so many questions now. It's overwhelming.