I'm invested in college and currently at the front end of a bachelor's degree and that will hopefully finish with a PhD in neuroscience. I'll make ground breaking research or not, but it'll be something I fall in love with. I hope.

My social psych professor said something today that I dismissed as obvious, but I'm now interested. He said we compare ourselves to peers so that we can rationalize how well we did. Thinking you did poorly on a test and you asked a classmate her score, you felt at ease because it was lower than yours. I feel like whenever I do this in any situation, I have settled with my reality... too content with what is now. It cheapens your progressions and attempts to just trying to impress people because it shouldn't just end there. "Well I tried." isn't making me content anymore. I want to succeed so badly, but I can't define what success is. I feel like the gold is rarely found without taking a risk first, but I don't know where to start looking. May be I have to say, "Fuck it!" and jump into the cold water.