I mean no offense to anyone else but this perhaps the most interesting introduction imo, thank you! Maybe I'll post it somewhere when I'm up for it, but I've had this sort of 'opening' to what beauty and attraction mean, and I've convinced myself that beauty is universal, and that 'natural' heterosexuality doesn't really mean anything when it comes to being attracted to people. By this I mean, if a guy is attractive to, say, a girl, that means that that guy is attractive. Maybe not to me, or to anyone else, but to that girl he is attractive. So, just as the girl has a certain set of values that the guy matches, there's nothing stopping me from having a similar set of values that will correspond to what the guy has. I'm a guy and I am very very much into girls, but I think I'm understanding where gays, lesbians, etc. are coming from. Also, a girl I was into some years ago turned me down because she was with someone. Just today, she told me that someone was a girl-- she (my friend) is not a lesbian. She just found this other lesbian girl attractive, and realized what I realized about beauty. I'm probably explaining this horribly, but I'm just figuring it out, so your story really helped :) Edit: I dont mean to generalize when I say I know where gays and lesbians and so on are coming from, I've always accepted them but never really 'got it.' I realize everyone's story is different. Edit2: Upon rereading I realize I didn't make much sense. Apologies.
It's okay! I think realisations like this are getting more and more common. I had the same one a few years back, and then a similar one in terms of gender more recently. Have you read Plato's Symposium? There's a speech in there (you could read it out of context, it stands alone pretty well - The Speech of Diotima) that talks about some of the stuff you just did - universal beauty and the like. You might find it interesting.