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comment by havires
havires  ·  3767 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Who are you, Hubski?

I am a 24 year old male from the East Coast USA, I'm moving to Wichita in about a month to get out of my current situation - which has left me stressed, cynical, worn out and honestly, left with a heap of intrusive thoughts. I try to vent this stuff on the internet by being an asshole, and I have noticed this... Animosity (?) leaking over to the real world, the lack of regard I hold for people online is trickling outwards, a well spring of bubbling vitriol that just works itself out to anybody that rubs me wrong. I don't know how long I have before I start burning bridges and sinking into the black pit of despair. Yeah I can already hear you chastising me and making assumptions about me (which is fine, internet strangers, I really don't care because the things I'm probably thinking about you are equally as bad). I ramble, I occasionally make run on sentences. I smoke cigarettes and drink beer, but online, I can be anyone or anything that I please. Frankly I'm... I'm just myself, that's who I am, and I defy anybody to try and make me stop being me.

I see others talking about religion (or maybe it was just that one person), but I'm an agnostic, and I challenge any believers of any kind to show me proof of your belief. Concrete "supernatural" proof, not Christ on a piece of toast "proof" either because that just makes me hungry. I think this is also known as "The burden of truth is on the believer."

Goddamnit this got ramble-ish really quick.

tl;dr: read it.

EDIT: I'm a writer and reader. I generally spew vitriol and occasionally spew word vomit which has meaning or purpose behind it. (I'm too hard on myself, I've been told my writing is actually acerbic at best and down right "mean" at the worst of times.) Sadly [my blog](havires.smile.sh/) doesn't have anything on it at the moment, except for some drunken post about troll/s in IRC.

EDIT 2: Fucking grammar! How does it work?