A lot of my self worth is tied into other people because I like to be needed. I've been struggling with that lately and realized down the road I was going to end up as one of those moms who turns down help from everybody then complains that nobody helps/appreciates her. Not to mention a lot of my helping tends to be little things in the background that I don't ask for thanks over but still expect people to appreciate that I'm helping. If somebody lost something I'll help them find it, I'll research things people need help with and it goes on really. I wanted to cheer up the players who struck out while playing softball the other night on the team I was playing against. I'm not even good at the sport and I still want to help others at the very least get to my level which is sometimes hitting the ball. Go me for not getting knocked up in high school. I don't even date those guys who can't do their own laundry. I bet I could have a long frustrating relationship with one of them.

So I'm thinking I should pick a career where I'm helping people, but I've also got to figure out how to appreciate myself for helping myself.