We'll see what happens. Having not met anybody who I've had romantic interest in (there has to be a better way to phrase that), it's difficult to meet those criteria. I love the idea of being interested in somebody, emotionally and physically or what have you, but I haven't actually been interested in anybody. I honestly don't masturbate that often, though what I do to get off still seems relevant. Part of me is resigned to accepting how I am, but I would very much like it to be different. I should probably talk to people besides strangers about it.

I do appreciate that sex in the real world is optimally not very similar to how it is portrayed. As a high schooler, I assmed that somehow by the time I was in college, I would want and have one night stands or what have you, the whole idea of casual sex bothered me before high school, and the idea that that's what the real world was/is like kinda freaked me out. And while I understand that there are people who do that, it's a much more appealing idea to want to share something with another person - it's just not something that I've been able to conceptualize easily because I haven't had any experience in a relationship, etc. I'll stop ranting about myself now.