For about a year I smoked weed with a deliberate month between each sesh. Only after dangerously unhealthy and crippling stress from school–coupled with feelings of anxiety about school that I hadn't gotten before– within the last month I've smoked around once a week. Never more than three times a week. Many of my friends are daily users and many of them are zombies at this point– that's their irresponsibilty. Others, from the same group of friends, are incredibly motivated and interesting people who use weed as an effective tool, instead of as a pacifier from life or an excuse to act stupidly. I know it can go wrong, and I know it can hurt me, but I'm ignorantly ignoring those consequences for incredible experiences that I would not have had ever in my life otherwise. To me, it's worth it, and I feel that I am responsible when I'm actually using it. But: "Drugs are so good, they'll ruin your life." Anyway, molly was fun but the comedown was crap, and I felt if I were to take it again in the near future I might develop some sort of addiction. It was a scary thought that I took as a fair warning to stay away. It was at a rave, coupled with my first-ever pot brownie. I felt that I was the most confident radiant exploding ball of energy in the room, confident especially with girls, but the whole time I knew it wasn't the real me and it was temporary, and it just wasn't worth it. I didn't have a plan for the video and just filmed it to be able to play back to myself when I was sober, in case I didn't remember anything. It is essentially just me, desperately trying to stay on topic and explain what I just experienced.
I just heard Amy Pohler talking about taking ecstasy (which I gather is a form of molly or the other way around). She also talks about the comedown. Do you feel like the experience of molly helped you understand what it feels like to be confident better? Also, you are still in high school right? I am of the opinion that people should just wait until they are out of college to do this stuff. It just seems reasonable I guess?Anyway, molly was fun but the comedown was crap, and I felt if I were to take it again in the near future I might develop some sort of addiction. It was a scary thought that I took as a fair warning to stay away. It was at a rave, coupled with my first-ever pot brownie. I felt that I was the most confident radiant exploding ball of energy in the room, confident especially with girls, but the whole time I knew it wasn't the real me and it was temporary, and it just wasn't worth it.
Ha. I think college is the best time to do those things. Drugs are everywhere and cheap. Consequences are lower than in real life where you can lose a job or not be offered one due to a failed piss test. It's more of the norm of the culture there as opposed to after college where it's frowned upon. I mean, if you want to be serious about academics, then only do drugs over summer vacation and at music festivals or whatnot. But I'll tell ya, ain't nobody can find drugs like somebody in college (who's not on a dry campus).
Yes you're absolutely right. That's also easier to say when you're not in high school. Oh well. edit: oops! I thought you meant in college. I think college is the best time, and that people should ideally wait after high school at the least. I think it helped me experience what is possible at extreme levels of confidence. but it didn't make me more confident by any means in the long run. I didn't feel like I was in control during my experience, in the same way that I feel when drunk. I'm just kinda spinning around while enjoying the ride, but not in the front seat experiencing things and learning. More of a "BLAM HERE'S A THING! ok hope you enjoyed that now here's sinking depression for 6 hours...."People should just wait until they are out of college to do this stuff. It just seems reasonable I guess?
Do you feel like the experience of molly helped you understand what it feels like to be confident better?