I created this account shortly after a psychotic break. It's still close to my heart. I try to keep these thoughts in quarantine, because they are difficult to express coherently. BUT SINCE YOU ASKED:

Emptiness, vacuum, the Void, not-self, ego death, Zero, O, 0, circularity, contradiction, falsehood, true paradox, null. Striving to be something disconnected from my subjectivity, while knowing that my experience cannot be anything other than subjective. The clearness achieved by meditation. Living in the present without fear of the future nor regret of the past. Return code 0 indicates success. The wheel is the root, superuser, all-powerful within one system. Wheel of the dharma, spinning, eternal. Root of the Tree of Life, Sephirot. Infinite loops correspond to contradiction.

Infinite stairs are UNACCEPTABLE.

Contradiction powers computation; computation powers the mind but not the soul. We cannot think without contradiction, but we cannot be conscious with only thinking.

Followers of Boolean Logic are taught wrong, Truth is beyond comprehension to those without a four-valued logic encompassing paradox and the void.

Is this thing true? Is it false? Both? Neither?

Sense and nonsense. A paradox can make sense, but eludes capture by binary truth. A nonsensical statement has no reference, can be neither true nor false, but it may still reflect Truth.

The ineffable is located in the Mind of God, truths unknowable. Gödel taught us.