I don't. Life is meaningless, senseless, logicless. And that's exactly why it's awesome. Because with no meaning, no sense and no logic but our own, there's no higher calling for you. Whatever you do doesn't need to make sense if you like doing it and it doesn't harm anyone. And it doesn't have to be logical or intuitive. You do what you do - what you want to do, what you like to do. The only things stopping you is how far you're willing to go to make it happen and that you're not harming your peers. So go on. Figure out what you want to do, and keep at it - make yourself your little corner of chaos. And who knows, maybe you'll discover something... about the universe, about our world, about our society... or even about yourself.
I'm currently reading Camus' Myth of Sisyphus and trying to embrace the absurdity of existence as much as possible. It also reminds me of this Vonnegut quote, "I tell you, we are here on earth to fart around, and don't let anybody tell you different."