My life is boring. I am broke and my brother is getting on my nerves in a major way. I have not been doing much writing but hope to in the New Year. I think it is OK to take some time off.

I have been living at my apartment alone for 2 weeks now and I love it, it's awesome. I'm keeping the place spotless, at least for now. We will see if it turns out I have some natural predeliction towards messiness. I have a friend who lived alone and when he did, I would come over and there would be piles of dirty laundry in various places in all rooms of the house. He likes to telling me living alone will be good for me, that it will tell me lots of things about myself, that it will show me how disgusting I can sometimes be. He is speaking from experience, of course.

I do not think I will find myself disgusting. Compulsively cleaning, sure. I have always tended more towards that side of the spectrum, though. Not towards laziness and filth. I got "control" and "freak" tattooed on my wrists earlier this year. I have always tended towards that. I do not think control freaks are ever very messy people, unless they have given up. I kind of enjoy some elements of being - ah, shall we say, slightly type A? : sure, I have probably cleaned for about an hour every day for at least the past 4 days (in an apartment I just moved into, so it wasn't dirty) but the place is wonderful, and clean, and I kind of enjoy cleaning. You make clear and visible progress very quickly, and it feels so rewarding to have a clean house when you are done.

As someone said to me earlier today, - here's to a sweet '16!