I've become addicted to a little logic game called 0h h1. I've been playing and mastering it for a long time, but recently I started catching myself obsessively playing it in my head, while trying to get to sleep. I once lost sleep over playing Dota 2 this way, so I'm wary of this new development. People of Hubski have been posting all those wonderful things they've done or are in process of doing, one more magnificent than another, and I've been thinking how come I'm not doing something like that when I'm clearly capable. I realized that the reason was that I grew up in a community of fatalists - people who believe that if things are destined to happen, they will, and if not, well, that's too bad. It's a sharp contrast to the people of Hubski, who have been nothing but encouraging to one another, whatever the circumstances. Blessing I found this place; not sure what I would be without it right now. I'm in a shitty place of mind right now. I feel like a miserable subhuman. It's objectively and subjectively incorrect of me to do so, but it's what I'm feeling being in this place I reluctantly call home. Still, the best practice to make most out of a bad situation, and I'm not going to sit around waiting for Santa to come. It's just... A little encouragement would be nice. To know that I can do this and leave peacefully with a result to be proud of once the next year of studying starts.
If you haven't tried it already, I would recommend cutting down on gaming. There's nothing wrong with gaming as a hobby, but, at least personally, I've found that gaming doesn't help me feel productive or self-confident. If you can, try to take a day or two off from gaming completely. Work on an old project, or (even better) start a new one. Go out for a walk or visit a new place nearby, read that book that's been on your shelf for months, or look over your notes and see what you should brush up on for next year. I've always found that doing those sorts of things makes me feel much better about myself than playing games, even if they aren't necessarily things that are productive.
Sorry, I didn't mean to suggest it was, although I realize my post probably came off that way. I just meant that, in general, I found it easier to feel productive and generally positive if I'm not gaming much (even if I'm not actually being productive in a traditional sense), so I suggested it might be worth trying to not game as much, but obviously I don't know whether or not that's something that would help you with the issues you've been facing.