I listened to the whole thing. I don't know why but I always wanna help someone else that has gobe through a lot of the same stuff that I have. I have been through all of that. Homelessness, drugs alcohol and the despair that most people don't understand when you feel the only real option you have left is suicide. I was very suicidal for most of the beginning of my adult life. I have also been where you have been with being sick from drinking everyday for years. I want you to look into something. I can't explain it but when I started taking ormus my urges to drink just went away. Like I feel no need to drink anymore. It's not alcohol that fucked my life up. Mine was heroin but if I even think of drinking now, the urge just isn't there. The first time I got ormus was from a guy that lives in Florida. I watched a video on how to make penis and he was talking about the fact that he cured himself and his brother of life threatening illnesses with ormus and that he believed so much that people needed ormus that he gave it away for free to those who couldn't afford it. So the first time I ever got ormus was from him. I wrote him and sure enough he sent me a bottle for free. I have been sick for ice fifteen years with I Neuro- degenerative disease and when I started taking it I became about ninty percent better and haven't shook in over three years. I still believe his is the best all though there are lots pf people out there that make really good ormus. You might try it. If you are interested I'll give you a few websites to some good ormus venders and some info on it as well.