Is everyone going through a heightened anxiety period? I was the same way a day ago, and yesterday my fiancée had the same thing. I hope it gets better for you. The last year or so has been plagued with anxiety for me, but things were actually pretty rosy during the shutdown until a few days ago.
Yep. I'm having anxiety for the first time in my life. Chest seizing up... brain squirrels spinning madly on crazy shit... out of breath... tense all over... snippy and aggro with my wife... for NO PERCEIVABLE REASON. Except... The World. I'm coping with it by looking it straight in the eye, and giving it none of my life force or energy when I feel it get the upper hand on me. I just watch it spin and do its thing, and keep myself even-keeled, breathing, drinking water, and even meditating. The best one was the other day my wife and I were on the couch, and I felt it coming on, and narrated the whole thing to her as it came on, tried to take over, and eventually passed. I was able to separate myself from it, and watch it happen. It was weird. And powerful.
Best I can describe it is that most of the time my emotions are more mellow/muted, but that I have moments of despair / negative thought spirals much more than I've had before. Moments when I'm working and a song comes up and I just want to bawl. A lower amplitude on average but larger dips in mood at times, so to speak.