It's kinda both. It's a Vonngut type depression, I suppose. I should have also added that I'm looking for a lot of things like his. I've read all of his work and identify with it so very, very much. It's a more general but deep kind, where I have such crushing doubt about our societies and species, but still have such a radiating emotion for the human spirit. I generally withdraw from the world at large, but find some much depth and potential in individuals. I just need less of the masses and more close personal discussion, really. I plan on making a post here on how it's really driven me to leave most internet communities behind. Except here. Here there is real discussion and a lot of humanity. A lot of good comes from this site for me.
Then I suggest you do both. I'd start by taking a good book to a local cafe, if there is one. Step two is to talk to a friend, or even better find a local function where strangers interact (check meetup.com), and force yourself to go and stay until the end. :)
I actually just updated that comment to add a bit more to it. I do really well with people and have no problem making or keeping friends. I actually do have a rather large base, but I need intellectual stimulus. I'm unfortunately very poor, and have been fighting to go to my university for years. It's pushed me out for about two years because of it, and since I moved across the country to be somewhere I enjoy and get a really good education, I no longer have my close friends and have very few sources to make new ones. Thankfully my girlfriend just moved back to town so I've been meeting a lot of people through her.
Well, it sounds like you at least have a pretty good well of emotional support. I've run the gamut myself, and if I have learned anything about myself, it's that making changes in my behavior is usually easier than changing my outlook, and often my outlook follows along. Thanks for the kind words about the site. I appreciate it.