Oh right, I guess I should say something huh? It's not been a very good week for me. I have to move back into my mom's house today. She doesn't like animals, so I needed to find somewhere for my cat Luna to stay for an indeterminate period of time. Coming to terms with that earlier this week hit me pretty hard. I'm losing my baby. I cried with her for a good amount of time before giving up on being productive that day and just sleeping from that afternoon to the next morning. Luckily, she is with someone who will take great care of her and I am not worried at all - she is in the best hands I could ask for. I'm feeling a lot better about it now. As for me, I just need to find the motivation to get myself on my feet again. It's going to be pretty hard for a while. Zero dollars and no transportation. There's no way I'm going to be able to afford four (a number increasing all the time, it seems) separate, hundred-dollar medications, therapy sessions, much needed endocrinology, dermatology, and podiatry appointments... let alone "normal" things like GP and dentist visits that I've been neglecting for close to a decade now. How am I going to do anything else with my life if I can't even afford take care of myself? That's not a good train of thought to go down. We go forward. I'll figure it out. The alternative is leaving Luna by herself, and that's not going to happen.
It sounds like you aren't in the best place right now, I'm sorry to read that. However, you are self-aware enough to at least recognize your challenges and once you've recognized them, you can attempt to absolve them. I don't know enough about your situation to suggest anything, but I can wish you well and say, "good luck!" One bit of advice for anyone with struggles, and this is going to sound trite, but... make a list. Make a list of the things you want to accomplish each day and then enjoy the satisfaction of crossing each thing off. edit: In rereading my comment, I realize that my suggestion may seem to diminish the scope of your problems. This is not my intent. It sounds like you have some major struggles. My suggestion stems from a time last year when I too was having some struggles that were outside of my control. All I could do to make my way through them was to make a list of the things I could control and accomplish those things. Also, I'm sorry to hear that you had to give up your cat. That's rough, hopefully you can visit it regularly. Again, all my best.