I just returned from a 2-month trip around europe. It is the first time I feel something like a traveling burnout. The last 2 weeks of the trip I lost my motivation to explore and preferred to chill and spend time with the friends I was visiting. After traveling for the past 5 months (2.5 months in Israel before that) I am back at the point I was before travels and have similar feelings to what ButterflyEffect mentioned in his recent post. I feel like I am lost, without any "plan". My aunt said that she feels that I am some kind of flying ghost who has many ideas and thoughts but can't set his mind on one thing. And that I need a partner to "earth" me, whatever that means... But its true, I have no clue what I want to do and where I want to do it. I want to do a PhD, because I want to continue learning. But I don't know which subject its going to be. Around 1.5 years ago I got interested in psychedelic substances. How they look like, where they bind, what they cause, why we see the effects of each substance etc. This could also be an interesting research subject. But I am afraid to do a PhD in this subject as it is my hobby and it has a bad reputation in the field. Additionally, my parents would probably freak out :D Additionally, I have a feeling that I am alone. Not lonely, but alone. I have many friends, but no one to really be on my side. Doesn't have to be a girlfriend, just a partner, or somebody I could go through life with. I used to have that feeling with the friends I had in Israel, the ones that I grew up with. Before university, I only had those 2 friends, and were very close. Now, I have many friends, but I don't feel as close to any of them... Anyone else had this feeling? Oh, I am not alone with the bartender? forgot that...
Thanks for reminding me of that. It's easy to get carried away with thinking that I need someone else to make things better. What do you mean little project? Get a raspberry pi and set up a media center? Read all the publications on MDMA/LSD/psilocybin? Something like this?
Despite living on different continents we seem to have a lot in common. One of my roommates and another close friend have been harping on that same thing. I completely agree with what mk said about that. I have the same exact feelings as you with the whole alone thing. Realized that I've had maybe two or three people that I would consider a "best friend" over the course of my life, but there's not a single person I would put in that category right now. Lots of good friends, acquaintances, etc. but nobody that I would consider as being extremely close.And that I need a partner to "earth" me, whatever that means...
I visited friends all around, this was my route: Montpellier -> Zaragoza -> Barcelona -> Freiburg -> Ulm (I studied there) -> S.U.N. Festival (not far from Budapest) -> Zagreb -> a camp close to Makarska in Croatia -> Maribor -> Wrocław -> kottbus -> Berlin -> Amsterdam -> Antwerp Was planning to do Paris and London, bit it didn't work out
I did visit Barcelona about 2 years ago with my parents. I can see how it is a cool city but I didn't get to experience the nightlife so I can't really judge properly. We mostly did the weird touristy stuff :P On the other hand, the first time I went to Berlin was with my parents too but I knew right away that I HAD to come back alone because I just knew how amazing it would be. Did you eat Mustafa's kebabs in Berlin? Best kebab of my life.
I didn't eat that kebab, but as I have been living here for a while, I am very picky about my kebab (my fav. is in Ulm) What I did enjoy though were the Falafel in Neu-Kölln. You have to know, good Falafel outside of Israel/Middle East are hard to find. In Berlin its as good as in Tel Aviv and even cheaper! I liked how open (or rather "non-strict") the city handles the use and selling of marijuana. Big plus!