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OftenBen  ·  3333 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: What are you proudest of right now?





blackbootz  ·  3333 days ago  ·  link  ·  

That's awesome! Are you as happy as you imagined you'd be after accomplishing these? Or has the treadmill of life added new dizzying heights for you to traverse?

Regardless, that's a lot to be proud of.

OftenBen  ·  3330 days ago  ·  link  ·  

It's a mix truthfully. In many different senses I'm kind of shocked I'm still here. (Alive, on hubski, not drowning in depression, take your pick.)

    Are you as happy as you imagined you'd be after accomplishing these?

I can't remember ever thinking about what it would feel like to accomplish big goals like that. I think I've just always assumed that happiness (That isn't fraudulent or harmful to other people) followed success, and I didn't need to think about it too much. As I age and attempt to develop a more casual relationship with non-binary thinking ( lil ) I realize I still have a lot of work to do.

The cool part is that I am in a position where that's not a scary prospect anymore. The amount of work I have to do is directly proportional to my aspirations. I think that sort of addresses the

    Or has the treadmill of life added new dizzying heights for you to traverse?

part.

The reason that prospect used to scare me (I think) was because I didn't understand that relationship. I had it in my head that I would pursue some great labor, and that it was somehow a great sin to have questions about the 'why' of it.

    Regardless, that's a lot to be proud of.

I've come a long way I think. Thanks :]