I read the question back to myself and it sounds weirder every time I say it. Not particularly? Don't get me wrong I don't hate myself, but there are definitely times that I very strongly dislike being who I am. I like to believe that I'm growing, and that one day I can honestly say I enjoy being myself all of the time.
Well, I admit I also wonder: does anyone like themselves 100% of the time? It is possible, or are you then a narcissist on some level? I don't think I have friends or family members that I know who I like all the time, so....should I like myself all of the time? We all fuck up sometimes, and I think it's reasonable for us to be unhappy with ourselves when we make mistakes...Isn't it? I don't know, I've been thinking about this this weekend.
One of the things that I wonder about is who is the real me? In the comfort of my own company I'm the type to dance around the room and act slightly foolish, but I probably wouldn't do that in public even if the mood struck me. Does it mean I dislike that part of myself? Or do I like the person I am being now too? I think it's weird for me because I view the self as hard to pin down.
I began meditating seriously maybe a month or two ago, and even to this point I have only made the question more complex in that time. I really don't have an answer when someone asks me who I am. I'm more willing to lean towards that idea that the self is very fluid, and its very hard to say I am any of those moments or I am all of them.
Nuance my friend, nuance. It's unhealthy to beat yourself up for every little mistake, but it's also unhealthy to gloss over them all with a big thick coat of 'I'm amazing on the whole so it really doesn't matter what gets fucked up in the process.'does anyone like themselves 100% of the time?
I'd say it's also unhealthy. A workable and useful truth lies somewhere between constant self-flagellation and ego indulgence. Personally, I'm working on judging myself by the same standard I judge others. Did you hurt anybody? Did you make someones day a little brighter? Are you working towards things you are passionate about?