I've always felt like there was something wrong with me because I have literally never cared enough about anything to identify with it. That's not to say I don't enjoy things, I've just never become invested in anything like other people do. I just float from one thing to the next.
That's one way to put it. It does sound very Buddhist, but to go back to my favorite article of all time, "Life as a Nonviolent Psychopath," Fallon's experience of psychopathy also sounds super-Buddhist to an outsider. Would you want to be a psychopath if it helped you get to enlightenment?
It's always seemed like a short coming though because it looks fun to really be a fan of something. Or have a long standing hobby, I jump around between things all the time. I think I get that from my dad, he'll put his all into something and then one day just be content with it. Then it's on to some new hobby.
Yeah, I have had music most of my life and I don't ever see not having it as my hobby. But it's more than a "hobby" at this point, it's like eating. I kind of have to do it. But I also jump from more casual hobbies to another one. I take up things, like golf, running, tennis, painting, different board games, podcasts etc. These are things that could be a lifetime pursuit for some people but for me I find come and go. Good luck! It sounds like you are doing really well though and I bet you learn a lot going from pursuit to pursuit. Right?
That's what I want with something, I want a passion. I do learn a lot except with rugby I think I might have forgot a few things with the blows to the head I took. Fucking awesome either way. I think there is something that holds me back from really getting in to hobbies, damn commitment issues, but I do learn something from every new things so it's not a total waste. Good luck with your music :) I enjoy those posts on here.