So I rebuilt it slowly over time. Before I link your beautiful answer to everyone, please clarify what "it" means in each of those excerpts. My guesses #1: my relationship with myself and sense of self-worth and resolve not to fall into the distractions of US culture? #2: my resolve, my sense of identity #3: building a relationship? By the way, your answer is so relevant to my one-woman show, now under construction.And then I moved back to the USA, and it all fell apart again.
I think it is like walking through a waterfall...
#1, really. It's the peace with oneself that makes one whole and a good partner for someone else. "It" in this case is my sense of self. My identity. The thing one must defend against is the ease of slipping back into patterns that are not a part of who I am, yet may be perpetuated by the worldwide marketing machine that tells you that you are not enough. Aka - Don't believe the hype. (And YAY! I am glad this may play into your show somehow! Very curious about that project...)