my boyfriend has been here since friday and it's been really nice, m happy - i was worried that after anticipating seeing him so much that it would be a letdown but it hasn't been I've been off my antidepressants cold turkey for a week now and other than some dizziness and headachey pulses i feel fine - feeling more emotional but in a good way - SSRIs have been nasty for me sexually like it does for a lot of people so if i can be rid of them i want to be both letters of recommendations i need for nut surgery are in so ideally sometime before christmas i can be living testicle free and hopefully only have to take 1 medication every day instead of 3 kinds this weekend will be grocery shopping and lease-signing and i should probably look for a job too - i really should be financially independent at this point and it bothers me that I'm not my life right now is "keep an eye on things and see how it works out in the end" which is exciting and boring at the same time