I'm stuck in a rut. I spend all of my time doing nothing - playing video games, watching movies and TV, mindlessly surfing the internet, masturbating - that kind of thing. And I hate myself for it. I'm unhappy and dissatisfied with myself and my life, and the fact that I know and fail to change how things are only makes me feel more ashamed. I mean, I have had so many chances to live a very good life, and yet here I am in the middle of nowhere. And I have so much to be doing. But there is time to change, and hope. Recently I saw this Cracked article and the third item resonated with me:
http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-harsh-truths-that-will-make-yo...
I would say you and I are in the same metaphorical boat. I feel like so many of my daily actions don't do anything for the rest of the world/ the good of humanity, and that's what I want my existence to be about. I feel like being here in a suburb of Chicago, there aren't very many opportunities to do so. I do acknowledge however that I might not be looking hard enough.