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lil  ·  4232 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Should I Quit College?

It might be a good idea to ask if the depression is directly a result of feeling that you are going in the wrong direction, that you are not writing the script for your life that you'd like to write, and that you've lost control of your life -- in which case quitting school and doing something that you are MOTIVATED to do will help lift the depression. OR if the depression is caused in part by homesickness, not enough sunlight, genetic or biochemical factors, neurotransmitters being blocked -- i.e. physiological causes that would be completely unaffected by quitting school.

It might also help to revisit your passion for music and look at the reasons why you wanted to study in the first place. Depression might be taking up so much room in your heart that you've forgotten those things. It would probably be a good idea to talk to a school counsellor - make a couple of appointments if possible so you could look at all sides. and finally, quitting school now, working for a few years and paying back some of your debt doesn't mean you can't go back later with greater passion and commitment.

JTHipster, depression is pretty awful. I hope you get some help as well. Also watch this if you haven't already. It's the best explanation of depression I've ever heard - especially if you have what might be called "clinical depression."





BLOB_CASTLE  ·  4232 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I would attribute it to a lot of things, my thoughts about going down the wrong path included. I was one who denied the validity of depression, claimed by those who didn't know how to be happy. I was always known by everyone to be the happy person. But then a massive shit storm of terrible occurrences came about and I lost the ability to find beauty in things. I didn't want to (nor do I still want to say) I was/am depressed, but it might be so. Things I'd attribute my depression to: the realization of how much debt I have, relations with roommates going sour, missing my family, the struggles of not agree with the concept of college/money, and winter and the lack of light it brings along with the inhibition of going outside.

I believe my passion for music has been waning not because of my sadness, but because of the hindrances I feel the educational system puts on the creative aspect of the music. I feel as if we're getting way too into crazy scales and things to play over chord changes that it's not even about the expression of oneself. I've begun to rebel in a sense and superimpose time signatures over the ones the rest of the group plays to not necessarily throw them off, but to realize not everything has to fit into the mold the professors are telling us it has to. I sort of have taken an interest in hip hop bass lines as that's about solid groove and not fancy shmancy scales. I don't know that the program would allow me to take a break, but it's definitely something to consider and talk about. I don't have time to watch this now as I'm about to leave to go camping with my girlfriend for the weekend, but I will once I get back.