I went to a trade school after I was in my 40's, so I never did the "going away to college" thing, but I do know one thing: If you do not follow your heart, you with ALWAYS wonder about the option you didn't take... the one your heart told you to go with... and every little thing that goes "wrong" on your new path will always have the question mark of, "Geeze... if I had followed my heart and done the other thing, then would I have avoided this trauma/situation/stress?" Whereas, if you follow your heart and it doesn't work out, then you have learned a valuable lesson about yourself. You thought one thing would be amazing, and it wasn't. Why? Introspection. Self-discovery. Confidence. Lessons learned. Etc. There was one time where I clearly did the "logical, right, and correct thing", and didn't follow my heart. And I still think about her several times a week...
I have been very open about how much the situation I'm in with my best friend (i.e. unreciprocated attraction) sucks. But if I know one thing, it's that if I hadn't told her how I feel, I would be in an even shittier place right now.There was one time where I clearly did the "logical, right, and correct thing", and didn't follow my heart. And I still think about her several times a week...
For me it was moving back to the USA, and leaving a relationship with a lovely woman behind. We had been dating for a while, it was good, but it wasn't let's-move-in-together-and-have-babies serious... and I needed to either leave the country, or commit to becoming a full citizen of the EU instead of just a long-term tourist. Job prospects had dried up. I had just come out of a bad relationship, and wasn't sure I should jump into another one.... and so logic told me to go "home", be near my parents again, and rebuild my life in the US. So I did. My heart wanted to stay, and it still twinges when I think about it.
fuck effortlessness. fuck that. try really hard and let everyone see. yeah whatever I just quoted mitski on twitter to you deal with it I'm on IRC with Q and / join usmitski @mitskileaks 19 Aug 2015